Feelings
Because our loves are disordered
our feelings are often unreliable indexes to what is true about us. Feelings
are real, and powerful, and must be dealt with. Sometimes they sync up with
what is true about us, many times, they do not. They are treacherous, temporary,
and tangled.
Treacherous because they reflect the
disordered loves we all have. At points, then, which we cannot easily identify,
feelings lead us to internalize, articulate, and respond to our lives in
distorted, that is, idolatrous, ways.
Temporary because changeable. Their
fleetingness betrays any claim we may have on them as a foundation for morality
or life’s direction.
Tangled because, following from
fleetingness and the disordered loves each of us experiences, feelings enmesh
us in a never-ending maze of perspectives and possibilities from which we
cannot extricate ourselves.
The struggle is to bring our (rebellious)
loves into sync with our creation as God’s beloved creatures bound to the
freedom of serving him throughout our lives. The good news is that in Jesus
Christ - his life, death, resurrection, and ascension - God has both reclaimed
and restored his wayward creatures. What we could not and would not do for
ourselves, God has done. What we can and must do is learn to live from love for
God alone, which the Holy Spirit “pours” into our hearts (Rom.5:5).
Our feelings, important though they
are, carry no ultimacy (beyond what we allow them). Because ultimacy entails
intimacy however, what we allow ultimacy has great power in and over us. This
is where we must beware the treachery, temporariness, and tangled character of
feelings. The reality of God in Jesus Christ, his love for us, and his call and
claim on us is the vantage point we are given from which to trust the Spirit to
the syncing work mentioned above. And thus we will get better and better at identifying
the marks of our still-disordered loves and resisting their siren calls to
order our lives by them.
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